Single Motherhood
For a long time Fantasia's "Baby Mama" song was my theme song, because everything she said was, and still is true. Having moved to a new country, makes it even more so. Single mothers go through HELL trying to make ends meet, sacrificing what they don't have left to make things happen for the family.
Tonight, my kids got on my last nerve, with their ungrateful behavior. They don't understand what mom is doing to make sure they have food in their bellies every day, electricity, tv, water, everything. I lashed out. I am a single mother, in a new country, with no family, limited help, and in medical school. Money is tight, strangling actually. What am I doing to help myself? What am I not doing? I have this to help me earn some money, I am uploading videos to youtube, I tweet, three blogs including this one, and I find the time to go to the US Embassy to do at least a half's day work...all in my attempt to create supplemental income while I am here in medical school so that they don't want for nothing, only to be slapped in the face repeatedly everyday with their behavior.
What is my solution to this? I am going to continue to hustle, to make sure my kids want nothing. I am going to continue to show them through my actions and by example that everything I do, I do it for them, but more importantly, I want to show them that if they ever find themselves in this same situation, that they don't have to resort to illegal or immoral means of sustainment. Most of all, I want them to see and learn to make better choices than I did so that they do not fall in my footsteps.
Single fathers are in the very same predicament.
I know that as long as I continue to lean on God he will continue to bless me and my family with the things we NEED more than with the things we WANT, at his own divine time.
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